when i start seeing there are no future
when i start seeing things are getting worse
when i start feeling frustrated
when i start feeling lost
when i start struggling
i foreseeing the end of it

Live for life.
And it consists of everything.
I wanna live my life to the fullest.
How meaningless life would be if I missed any part of it.
Have to reconsider what has made me staying here for so long.
And if there is anything else that could make me stay longer.

I’ve seen.
I’ve experienced.
I’ve enjoyed.
And i have stagnated here.

Salute myself for this daily routine.

Perhaps..
It’s time to leave..

6.30am.
Getting to car.

7.00am.
Passing toll.

My shift is 8am.
How sad it is to leave my house every morning when the day is still dark.
And spend 1.5 hours in the traffic.
I hafta be concentrated though i almost fall asleep more than 3 times at least.
And after spending my concentration in 1.5 hours, you can imagine how i would be when i start working.

I thought previous location was bad.
And now this is worse.
What could be worst?

I am always not a morning person.
Especially waking up in the EARLY morning, preparing and leaving my house when the day is still DARK.
I am a night person who prefer to work night shift to be franked.
Though used to work office hour, being a sales person, time is basically mine.

I miss our time when we used to go beach whenever we want to.
I miss our time when we always have drinking section.
I miss our time when we always go supper in the middle of the night.
I miss our time when i wake up and go lunch with you guys.
Seems decadent huh?
I’d got something and i lost the other.
And now, i have the other and i lost something.

I understand that life has gain and lose.
But this is just not the life that i want.
I am greedy for wanting that lil more.
I hate the morning traffic!

One more day, to my off day.

It’s only the first day.
Or i should say second after the replacement i replaced earlier.

I miss pulling shot from the portafilter that i filled up ground coffee from grinder by myself.
Seeing shot flows from portafilter.
Instead of, just a button.
And everything set.

I miss controlling steam wand’s pressure and temperature to froth very good foam.
Seeing customers satisfaction on their faces and request for another cup or come the next time.
Instead of, just a button.
And everything set.

After all, i still need to get used to it.
And challenge it.
Do my best.

Shift work is somehow tiring.
Tiring of opening shift.
As i hafta spend about an hour or more to get through the congested traffic to reach store.
And another hour to get through the slightly less congested traffic to reach home.
Closing shift is still fine.
As i don’t needa stuck in the traffic for so long and i can get enough sleep as well.
Though more works to do during closing.
But i likey.

Problematic.
Unpunctual.
Lazy.
Stubborn.
Opinionated.
Headache and dislike partners with the ‘symptoms’ listed.
What i can do is only practicing the what-what-why, what-what-why and verbal warning.
Lastly, let store manager to handle.
How tiring..
Why can’t people carry, improve themselves and be initiative?!

But some partners do let me relax and release.
Even a few minutes only.

Even just a cup of 3oz green tea latte topped with whipped cream.
It could be a short enjoyment as well.

I need real rest.
Awaiting for next month..
15 days to go, yay!!!
This will be the longest holidays i’ll be taking since i started working here.

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